Written off?

"In my heart, I think that sometimes our deepest fears are not, that we are going to fail. Not that we will crumble and fall when our hearts are heavy and life seems like it is a futile effort. Our deepest fears are, that we are capable beyond measure...It is all the light that we hold inside our hearts, not the darkness, that most frightens us." -Jessica :D

I made a new friend today on the internet. She's a pretty amazing writer and this from her blog quite touched me. I think I do have something of that in me. And to the four of you who follow my musings, you should take a chance to read her blog. It's worth the time.

But...I'm still looking for something which holds my attention for longer than two days...

I think I've been delaying somewhat on deciding what I most like of things I do. Perhaps I was waiting to find that special someone and once I found her, I could sort of just...fit myself...around her likes and dislikes, picking out of my vast repertoire of things I find interesting those that would best fit her.

And here I am...and she's still MIA. So I'm left to myself to sort out what I most like. Or not. Maybe I'll just take paramedic classes and try that for a bit. Finally finish a degree in something interesting and then do that for a while. Then visit Antarctica, perhaps? Or herd cattle in Australia. Try making it in the movie business for a bit. Finally write out one of the oodles of ideas flying around in my head...

Sometimes, I envy those people with a singular amazing talent that they can just love and go with... and they probably envy me.